She's staring at me
and I laugh
because she doesn't know who I am
But she's looking at me as if I should be afraid
Afraid of the monster she is holding inside her
Her face contorts into
images of hate and hostility
and I laugh
because she doesn't know
I know the truth
The monster is seeing me
The monster is seeing me
And is seeking its release
Her looks of surprise and consternation
as I never turn my eyes away
yet she
she can't seem to look me in the eyes at all
She just looks on me
Hoping I will turn away
from the seething thickness
of her confusion that rises up
and collects in tears
she will not allow to fall
But I see them
each tender drop
drawing all her hurt and fears
into coagulated maliced-filled capsules
she's desperately trying to cover them
in her twisted cloak of understanding
in her twisted cloak of understanding
But she will not let them fall
because she thinks they will scare her
in her self inflicted shame and guilt
But I know they would cover her in beauty
If she'd ever let them go
She's grinding her mind
trying to figure out how to recover from the
seeming ugliness she knows I see
She can't touch me..
Yet she thinks she is affecting me
She thinks she's hurting me
and so she runs
at least in her mind
she tries to keep those
evil thoughts at bay
through her silence
My poor little me
Fighting the battle
to come up from the darkness
of the evil in herself
My poor little me
thinking if she can keep this
from my eyes
it will disappear
If I were me
I would love that hate-filled,
hunched-backed,
deformed
malevolent
being she locks away in her kindness
But I am not
My poor little me
not remembering she not the window
but the light pouring through
If only she could
in this
the most malformed of herself
understand what it means to see me
She would know it's all for service
It's all for peace
It's all for glory
That her twisted existence be
She keeps staring at me
and the monster within her keeps
snarling, and wreathing in pain
not knowing who I am
she will not reach for me
she cannot ask me for help
But I know her heart
I know her mind
She is aching to release
the monster in love
She is seeking to be free of its presence
A presence which keeps her divided
I see her looking
Looking towards the hell she's in
and back to me
She knows I am not from her world
She knows
in my eyes
there is Love
Love she thinks she cannot have
Love she thinks she cannot give
The Love she thinks she cannot be
My poor little me
If only she would listen
to what her eyes can see
she would hear herself saying
there is not a her and I
the one I am starting at
she is the I of me
(c) kalonia jennings 11
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