Mirrors

fun house thoughts
keep me distorted in my own eyes
other people's words
judgement of being
appearances of reality
I keep laying myself naked
to people who judge my fingerprints
as broken

these other figures
rip me at with imaginings
that what I am is not enough
for myself
let alone Life
I keep agreeing
because I think them
more trained to partner Life
when Life obligated Itself to my dance card too

labels and boxes
stickers with descriptions
of being only what they say is
I scratch at the reflections
blood streaks my face
that's when I understood

the words
the thoughts
the collections of distortions
are me screaming at myself
my attacks on others for my sins
my beliefs of who I am deep down
my resistance to the stories steaming
from the maladjusted psychopathic
collective thinking
I keep nodding
I keep agreeing

then someone came along
grabbing my hand
image just as distorted
I looked at them
seeing light encased in stories
and through their eyes I recognized
myself as one of the distortions
pretending to be the real thing

the mirrors cracked and crashed
and without border and boundary
the Light dances and sings to eternity
and merrily down the stream we go

Frustration

Push.
Push!
Push!!!!

My arms are limp
my face is swollen
my body aches
I'm weak

I'm weak in all the ways a person can be
and darkness is so warm
it keeps me safe from the prying minds
who want to know but don't even care

The darkness says comforting things like
sleep
don't think
that's important but don't worry about it
but it whispers
you will never rest
I will be your thoughts forever never ending
watch it all fall apart, it's your fault

My arms are limp
my face is swollen
my body aches
I'm weak
because I can't seem to
push through these frustrations and fears
I can't give birth to these dreams