Bleeding and Broken

Hear it
the plops of thick thoughts
hitting the floor of my sadness
they link and create chains of
words I don't want to hear
but I listen

I listen as they bubble up
and fall from my eyes
why the twistedness of life
why the deepest craters of ugly things
why do they show up covered in glances and words

And words tear flesh better than knives
the tongue
a full arsenal of weapons
aimed for the softest organs
waiting to sever the veins of truth
and leave them flaccid and exposed

exposed by the weaknesses of the mind
wanting to be set free
it captures and binds
in pictures less than perfect
pushing cravings to the edge of impossible recovery
I wait for the sound of the dawn
the crinkling of the air under the weight of prayers

prayers sent far into myself
I wring my hands waiting for answers to manifest
knowing right timing has been fulfilled in the future
I hear my soul breaking open
so that my spirit can shine

No Vacancy

The bell is ringing
and the tapping fingers of fate
are repetitiously ticking
off the delay of my response
destiny can't see me
I'm hidden in Eternity

bitterness is screaming it's hungry
anger is pulling it's hair
blindness bumped into a wall
fear is seething
Because I no longer tend to them
I'm hidden in Eternity

trouble unpacks
packs and unpacks itself
in the lobby of my soul
looking for a place to hang it's bags
It can't understand
why don't answer it's call
I'm hidden in Eternity

unchanging circumstance
no miraculous interlude from the present
nothing in my situation has changed
I'm just hidden in Eternity

The sign was etched upon my doorpost
before the world began to spin
No vacancy to anything in time
I am a child of Forever
I am hidden in Eternity

He Said

He said
he'll never leave
so I walk away
to get caught up
in the tangles of life
like fingers in the kitchen of nappy hair
searching for freedom
like the prayers of the dying

He said
he has patience
so I allow myself
to wither and die
knotted, black, and naked
like a summer peach tree
until the spring
where life will gather all the fruits
of my gestation

He said
Love
He said love
like he was familiar with Her curves
like he kisses Her lips
aches for Her earth
and found Her in me
So I expose my darkness
let the pain unfurl
and I wait

I wait because
I have never heard
a soul speak from the invisible
never saw how breath gave life
never knew the tangibility of a blessing
until
He said...