Distraction

Before I could embrace myself fully
something like you showed up
I played with it
like a child with ants
feigning power

You showed yourself
and the glare of my own reflection
blinded me
so I hid

Now
I live life
pretending not to see you
while you walk through my thoughts

I'm trying to make the familiar
a stranger
Like taking my fingerprints
and putting them on another

You rule a kingdom in me
but you wish to remain a commoner
inside someone else

I stop myself
from being a distraction
until the day
I can occupy my space in you

until then
I'm like a child with ants
feigning power